Post-grad breakdown.

I can't keep doing it but I can't stop doing it. Thats the challenge I keep coming face to face with. I'm in such a weird mood tonight. I'm so tired from the last week full of work and floorsets. My body is utterly exhausted and achy. Yet my mind is racing. I don't feel like myself at all today. I feel really depressed. I want to cry. I'm lonely. The only person I want to be here is 167km away and the only person I want to be here is the person I shouldn't. What the hell am I doing? With myself? My life? Everything? Nothing I do anymore seems to make sense...where did Gill go? I'm breaking down... I'm so stressed out about what to do with my life its insane. Absolutely insane.

Reality?

My facebook horoscope today says:

"It's time to let a chapter of your life come to an end. It's hard to say goodbye sometimes, but important to realise when you need to move on."

Another motivational post, but somewhat real.

Dear Yeti,

I will no longer allow you to control my life and my actions. I will no longer allow you to destroy my lungs and allow you to take my hard earned money. I will triumph over you and I will cease to cough up black mucas into garbage cans and kleenex.

The End.

I'm still alive!

This post has been well overdue because of a lack of a wireless router in this new house. I'll try to be a bit more faithful but you'll have to be patient with me as plugging my computer into the modem upstairs in the hallway is a bit of a hassle. Anyways, I'm all moved into my new house, with my three roommates Vanessa, Kristen and Ashley. It is an amazing house and I'm loving it so much! I'll have to take some pictures and post them. The address is rather random too, 669 Scully. Easy to remember!

So, what is new. I'm finally completely single and I'm lonely and I miss my best friend. Work is taking over my life. So...basically I feel exactly the same way I felt most of the summer. Sweeeet. Some real changes need to be made in my life too. I need to cut the smoking habit before I die and go to the doctor before I worry myself sick. Basically I need to get off my lazy ass and do things to keep my mind from wandering.