8 days til my big 2-4

Birthday countdown: 8 days! What should I do on this day might I ask? I have the day off. I want to do something fun! I was also talking to my mom today and she loved the car she looked at yesterday. She's just waiting on getting financing approval and then.... I GET MY MOM'S OLD CAR! 2001 Sunfire. It actually used to be mostly mine back when I lived at home in Kingston. My dad had bought it so I had a ride to UNBSJ. I'm pretty pumped to have my old "massage" car back haha. Also pumped to have a car thats reliable and 11 years newer than the car I have now!

Perhaps if its a beautiful day on my birthday, a trip to Parlee will be in order in my new car.

*Cross your fingers!*

I don't work until 6 tonight. It's a half day. I'm glad, although I always hate working tuesday nights because its markdown night. Oh well, only 5 hours instead of the usual 9!

Here kitty kitty!

Alright, so I remembered to change some of the wording around in my last post, but not all. Apparently I'm an idiot. I had actually meant to post that last entry last night, but the internet was down and I really felt like getting some of my feelings out (as I tend to lock a lot of them away) so I wrote that on paper and retyped it earlier today. The mistake I made while retyping the post was actually that I was quitting smoking today (not tomorrow!). I guess I've cut down a lot but I'm not going to lie...I have had a few smokes today. Oh well, tomorrow will hopefully be a better day. I may chill on the rooftop again this evening. It's a really beautiful place to think.

Laura kitty-sat today for an 8-month old fuzz-ball of love. Laura and I sat outside with him on our front doorstep and got many oooohs and awwwws. I'm in love with this kitten! He has now left the premise but memories will remain. If I end up having to live alone I'm going to have to get a kitten of my own to keep me company (as well as my sanity).

This is it. I've had enough.

It's been a very weird, thought-provoking week full of some of the right and wrong decisions...

After a long evening last night spent chilling on our beloved rooftop with my two favourite people, Heat and Laura, I have devised a plan: Heat and I are quitting smoking tomorrow. This is going to be the real thing this time. Bags of suckers from the Dollar store will be in order. I really feel like this is my time to turn my life around. I don't know how things ended up so messed up in my life but hey, it happens to even the best of us, right?? Things are looking up. I feel optimistic for once. There is a possiblity that I may be getting my mom's car to keep as a present for graduating UNB/my birthday by the end of this week! I think that having my own car to drive again will help bring me out of this dark hole I've fallen so deeply into. Freedom to do what I want, when I want, again.

I hope I can learn to be happy again. I've had enough. I don't deserve to feel the way I feel. I don't deserve to be treated the way some of the people I love the most treat me. I'm done.

Roof top adventures!

The old lady that lives next door yelled at us last night when we were chilling on the roof for being too noisy. He walked to the edge of the rooftop with a tree branch full of leaves in his mouth and apologized for the ruckus that was caused [He was trying to be a teradactyl (Spelling?)]

I'm absolutely in love with hanging out on the roof! My roof adventures thus far consist of seeing shooting stars, the big dipper, the north star, fireworks, pop bottle yetis, shining flashlights on random people from afar and watching silly boys eating mushrooms.

I'm going to miss this house and my sweet roommates so much when its over in the fall. 4 more 9 hour work days until my WEEKEND OFF!!!

Rain Rain Go Away.

I hate you for giving me the hug that lifted me off my feet and into the clouds. I hate how no other hug has ever made me feel like I was floating before. I hate how I was fine before that (or at least good at pretending). I hate the way I've been feeling lately. The rain outside seems to mimick my mood.

Does 111 mean I can make a wish?

This is my 111th post in this blog.


Anyways, today is my day off!!! I spent last night drinking at the boys place on Graham. The night started out with a game of 5 Round (I think its called- its a card drinking came) with Rich, Caroline, Heat et moi. I ended up playing 3 consecutive games and in doing so, drinking nearly 3/4 of my half pint of rum. Needless to say, I ended up at Dolans with Amy and Kaitie. More drinks were bought and dancing ensued.

Jacks pizza and yetis ended my night.

This morning I woke up super haggard. I came downstairs to an empty house and tried to recouperate from my lack of groceries by substituting yetis. It didn't help. I walked to Kings Place for a double cheese.

I'm just chilling out tonight though as I must work in the am tomorrow. 8am to be exact. Ugh. I'll probably chill at Graham for a bit.